| Tuesday, January 31, 2006 |
| 2006 Kiss My... |
| To date, this month (this year actually) has really, really, really blown big pieces of chunks. How do you bring life into perspective when everything happening around you seems crazy???? The only lesson I am trying desperately to learn right now is to cling to God's plan... or at least the hope that he has one. I feel as though there is this big ace hole in the middle of my forehead and an even bigger one in my chest... is this one of those blogs I probably shouldn't publish? Maybe... but I feel so helpless these days not to wander around with this stunned look on my face at my absolute lack of ability to handle life right now. FUNCTION is the only thought my mind is able to get through to the rest of my body, just do what I gotta do and be done. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. |
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| Friday, January 27, 2006 |
| Identity... |
I decided I should keep with the "I" alliteration in my blog titles for awhile... kind of a cool trend I think.
I think I have found a piece of me that has been missing for awhile.
Man, it's weird how easily you lose focus of who you want to be.
Character is a big thing. Integrity in leadership is what I am learning about - and how I need more of it. Not only that; but how I desire it again. I desire my old passions that have somehow been misplaced over the last couple months; the WORD... I used to love spending time in the Word, hearing what God wants for me through it, learning to love God more in learning more of His character in the history... you get the picture.
Just some thoughts I thought I should jot down cuz the last entry was kind of depressing... things are looking up people. |
| posted by Erica @ 4:48 p.m. |
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| Wednesday, January 18, 2006 |
| Ignorance... |
| Sometimes it is easier to make others laugh and momentarily forget that life has its really crappy moments. I am in one such time of life. I was so excited about this writing thing at the beginning of the year and with one turn of events find myself at a loss to know how to relate to anything anymore. Who do you turn to when those you would usually turn to disappoint yet again? I feel bad for those closest to me right now because I think I've kind of fallen apart on them... selfishly I don't want to have to be "ok" right now because I am not. I was describing to a friend the other day how what I want MOST in this entire world right now is to go on a vacation to some tropical hot spot (a resort in Mexico would do just fine... or maybe the Caribbean somewhere) and forget that I have a life back here in Canada. So, that said, if anyone would like to buy me an all inclusive week or two in a vacation spot, I am willing to let you - honestly, maybe the Lord would bless me so, so why not ask? =) Ignorance is bliss every once in a while. |
| posted by Erica @ 12:12 p.m. |
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| Monday, January 02, 2006 |
| Inspiration... |
Dana Barrand and I were recently talking about an email that I wrote, and she encouraged me in my writing; that maybe I should do more of it... possibly even trying to get something published in this year. The thought is a scary one. I love to write, sometimes I even think I'm an ok writer. But I'll tell you what I told her - when I was in Grade 6 already I loved to write. I wrote 70 pages of what I thought was going to be a book before I let a friend read it... and my friend laughed at me after she'd read it... I garbaged those pages, and ever since have had an incredibly difficult time letting people read my writing. Even handing in a paper nearly kills me if I think I haven't done a good enough job - any Bethany'ers out there might relate to this: handing in a garbage paper to Randy or Gil nearly does me in. Anyway, since Dana todl me this a few days ago, I've been looking at life through new eyes - where will the inspiration come from? I don't know, but as I sit here in the Broadway Roastery, surrounded by people and life I know that something will nudge that part of my brain that loves to write and create a flowing piece of work that others enjoy reading. Crazy... I've never had a serious New Years Resolution before... now I do.
Erica's New Years Resolution: Get something published before Jan 1, 2007. (or at least attempt to...)
I hope 2006 is a year in which you all can experience something... don't run away from the questions life brings you, face em head on... be a different person tomorrow than you are today... and never forget to enjoy the ride.
Sincerely, Erica |
| posted by Erica @ 11:44 a.m. |
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