El Camino...: What is out there?

El Camino...

Es largo y profundo, pero voy a caminar el camino...

Friday, November 24, 2006

What is out there?

For me. that is indeed the question I am pondering on this particular sleepless night. Who am I to be? What am I to do? Today I translated this "healthy mother, healthy home" thing... a Colombian girl is having her second child (first here in Canada)... and I loved every minute of it. Helping her, being able to calm her nerves and answer her questions... there is no feeling like it in the world. Every opportunity I get to translate for someone only makes me that much more grateful that I struggled with such loneliness and isolation while I was in Colombia. It was worth it to be completely ensconced in the language and to have learned so much... crazy!

Lately I have been loving a new idea regarding refugees here in Saskatoon - whether or not it will come to fruition we'll see. Maybe it's not for me to be a part of - maybe it's for someone who is more into communal living... I don't know. However, the thought is in my heart and it excites me. I have a longing to be with people and to help them... is it in me/my character to do this full time? Or am I too selfish with my view of time and space?

And also I then think about the fact that I have applied to a school on the other side of this country, yet am plagued by this indecision as to whether or not I should finish the application process by sending in my resume. What if I get in? What if I don't? Is my restaurant dream really a plausible idea?

And lastly, why do I view everything with such hope? It's heart wrenching to be disappointed time and again. Particularly when it comes to viewing my short comings. Why am I such an emotional person - sometimes I just want to shout out how I feel or express myself in my over-dramatic way... only to be reminded again that not everyone understands that very expression. The ultimate slamming of oneself into the final wall of guh-ness.

For real lastly... my buddy Chris was kind enough to point out I cheated on that last post and that in fact, because I listed Grey's Anatomy twice, I only listed 99 thing I love about life and living. So. For real now; to make it a true 100...

#100. Trashy Magazines and Hollywood news.

Yes it is true... don't you love that that was my #100? Hehehe... enjoy this weekend folks! Enjoy every moment!

posted by Erica @ 11:48 p.m.

1 Comments:

At 9:56 p.m., betty said…

hey love sorry to be anal...but check 78...
i heart you..: )