| Monday, February 20, 2006 |
| Happy 50th Blog Entry! |
Okay, so this weekend I was in Edmonton for Term Break (the one and only reason I haven't been around to answer your phone call Betty!) and will be going home today. I can not wait to be back in my room, with my music... somehow I thought I'd be funny and bring my old school CD case along. Not a good idea people - driving to old school Madonna and N'Sync - geh! While this has been a rather strange couple days here, some very good things have happened:
1) Liz drove the car... hilarious!
2) I rode a rollercoaster for the first time in my life!
3) I dyed my hair and it is stupid dark.
4) Liz and I both ate 2 big ace pieces of lemon meringue pie last night!
5) We are going to get sick McD's breakfast for the drive back.
6) We ate at this AMAZING Mexican/Salvadorian restaurante!
7) 4 hours wandering West Ed mocking all the Canadian Idol tryouters...
8) Mean Girls was most definitely watched!
9) Rented a Toyota Carolla - always a nice addition.
10) Posed for pics with Farley Flexx... oh yeah baby.
11) I tripped while posing in the penguin pic and ended up on my face.
12) Zombie Song was created on the way home - ask Liz and I for an example.
E-Town 06 is almost over... "fletch"... hehe... that was for you Lizzie. |
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| Sunday, February 12, 2006 |
| The Sun Came Out Today! |
Okay... so I can most definitely handle +3 weather! Today the sun came out... and I love love love the sun. As I was driving through good ole S'toon this afternoon, I distinctly felt the heat of the sun on my face... and I loved it. There is something about the sun that always makes me feel like life is OK. It helps that I was just coming from a lunch with my friend Dana.
Life is looking up for this next year people; and that is because God is really releasing things in my life. This last little bit I have been processing and thinking and praying and so many good things have come out of it. After one of my mentoring times with Sherry I have had a question in mind: "Who is Jesus to me?" Often in times of hardship or struggle we turn to so many things/concepts/etc... depression, disillusionment, good ole alcohol, etc... instead maybe the question isn't "God what is wrong with this picture/me/You???" It should be: "Jesus who are you to me?" Or more specifically: "Jesus: What does your presence in my life make of this situation?"
As the sun was on my face today I distinctly was aware that God/Jesus/Spirit have really changed my life - for the better - and I should live with that knowledge at the forefront of my mind and life. What does that look like? I don't know... but as Dana and I converse about this next year - about experimenting in life and love and life and love (said twice on purpose...) and being Jesus in our surrounding environment - I get pumped. I get pumped to remember and to ponder who exactly Jesus is to me; and what I want that to look like to those around me. |
| posted by Erica @ 2:48 p.m. |
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| Tuesday, February 07, 2006 |
| Letting Go |
| This last week has been an extremely interesting one. It's hard to write without saying too much - but some things in life that I thought were permanent have suddenly become not so permanent. I see now that it was wrong of me to cling to the things of this world that I thought I needed or that were a "sure" thing when really, all along, they weren't ever mine to need or be sure of. In this, God has spoken to my heart, in much the same way he did while I was preparing to leave for Colombia at this time last year. Last year, in my heart of hearts I was praying through and begging God to help me surrender everything to Him - hopes, fears, ambitions, people... I knew that I couldn't leave Canada still clinging onto those Canadian hopes and wants of mine. It was an intense time of feeling the intimacy with God and of knowing I was walking towards Him and with His heart. Since that time, I have obviously forgotten the lesson... it stinks that I have to relearn it in the hardness/pain of current life situations; but at the same time it doesn't stink at all. I think God desires us to release everything to Him - I know I personally am so tired of clutching everything so close that my muscles are tense from the effort... It's hard to trust God when everything in our lives seems to be changing. But if the lessons I learned in Colombia are anything to go on - hard that they may be - it is most definitely worth it. My prayer for myself as I walk through the hallways that life is taking me right now is that I can let go... and in letting go, that I can be released to be and do what God has for me. |
| posted by Erica @ 9:19 a.m. |
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| Thursday, February 02, 2006 |
| What my Journal taught me... |
So last night I was reading through my journal from this last year and contemplating this next year of being 23... and I realized that all my negativeness is kind of ridiculous. Life has its way of sending along bad news sometimes that at the time seems like too much to handle; but ultimately some lesson or something good usually comes out of it.
I know that my attitude this last week hasn't been very good - I don't always handle hurt in the most God-honoring way; but it's better to be honest about it then not I guess? This said; I am sorry to any who would read this if I have hurt you in my self-involved pain. Specifically I hope the person I have in mind would hear that...
Sometimes I just wish life would work out the way I think would be best. However, God always teaches me that His way is best, and so my role is simply to "cling" (Thanks LB!) to the hope and the knowledge that He is good and He does have a plan.
Without any bitter barbs or sarcasm behind it: truly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me... |
| posted by Erica @ 11:52 a.m. |
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